annoyatron: crickets and tumbleweed

Alright, over-active mind, settle down

I woke up about 20 minutes ago and realized that I still had a 21mg nicotine patch on. No wonder I have been tossing and turning from strange dreams all night long. One of the more vivid dreams and also the most frantic happens to be the one that I remember the most.

The dream starts out on a ledge. Darkness and cloudy wisps all around. A narrator speaks: “Life starts out on an ever uphill ledge.” I scramble along the ledge on all fours, first slowly, then faster and faster. “Just as your life will, the ledge will narrow, and the surface will become rougher.” I feel rocks and striations digging into my fingertips and palms. Eventually the pain becomes near unbearable as the obtrusions of the ledge become razor sharp and slippery with my own blood. “And as quickly as it started it will end.” I see an aperture in front of me, azure blue sky, and I can hear and smell the ocean. I frantically scramble up to the end of the ledge and freeze for an instant as I take in the ocean in all its glory. White-crested waves, the water almost green in its hue. “Go on, do not be afraid, you have to jump!” I look around, down at my shredded and bloody hands.

I resolve instantly, standing up for the first time. With three sprinting steps in a last burst of energy I leap off of the ledge. Into cool, salty water that burn in my fresh wounds. At first I am overjoyed to have made the leap and as I break the surface my eyes adjust to the glory of the ocean and the sky above. The searing pain no longer radiates up from my palms and feet.

Then I feel something underneath me in the water, roiling, ever elusive. As I swim outwards into the ocean I am ever harried by the presence underneath me. Eventually I begin to distinguish the presence as it rises up towards the surface. Horrific striations and obtrusions similar to those on the ledge only magnified a thousandfold rise up to torment me yet again.

That’s when I woke up. Eight minutes before my alarm was set to go off.